i miss you damn much

damaged people damage others. or themselves. people are selfish. their love for others is so god damn selfish. people want to destroy what is nice, what is good, what they want and make it theirs.

does analysis make one feel secure? less lonely?

is complexity beautiful?

is ignorance beautiful?

is isolation beautiful?

maybe.

maybe not.

reject it or reject it not.

i don't want to go anywhere, i just want to be happy.

i wore high high heels and short short skirts to hide my depression and weakness.

tried to hide my loneliness by horniness, tried to deny how predictable my patterns are.

good looking things are not lasting but elegance and politeness can be used.